A NOT SO HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Say a prayer for me and buy me food🥹

Growing up, I don’t get excited about my birthdays and it’s still the same till now.

I feel the only thing I’m obliged to do that on my birthday is to thank God for life and growth.

However, this year’s birthday came with a lot of angers, irritation and pain, and with less gratitude. I realized I’m officially now an unemployed adult and I’m still depending on my parents for 85% of my lifestyle. I was going to be totally silent about my birthday this year and the day would just pass by like every other day, then I spoke to someone I consider a big brother and I told him how I really felt, I told him I felt like a failure, like I’m not doing enough, I felt less of myself. It was really good that I spoke to him because most people around me see me as a girl that has her life together but I don’t even have my head together and I really can’t rant to anybody, y’all are going through your own sh*t.

The person I spoke to laughed, he said “Seun, you still have time, and you are doing great”, he went ahead and listed the things I did that I did not recognize as achievements and told me a lot of my mates would kill to have what I have and do what I’ve done. He told me most of my mates are dead, some in rehab and some in ICU. Then it hit me how ungrateful I have been just because God hasn’t answered only one of my prayers.

I realized it’s okay to want more but in the midst of the chaos of wanting more, don’t forget to be grateful for the ones you already have.

If you are okay with where you are or what you have, there’s trouble. If you want more and you forget the ones you already have, there’s trouble.

In light of this, gratitude has been my cloak and praises have been words, today and forever more.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY O.M Olusanya.

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Love, Light and Amala,

Oluwaseun Ayanfebaba.