Apparently, adulthood is more than what we are told and what we see on TV and social media; it’s really crazy out here.
I haven’t applied for jobs for the past month, not because I don’t need a job but because I’m in need of a break before I break down. The worst type of meltdown anyone could have, aside from health issues, is actually a mental breakdown, and I have been there so many times that I know when I’m zoning out.
I noticed I’ve been zoning out recently, and I can’t gather my thoughts. I forget things and I feel like the pressure of the world is on me: the need to make my family proud, the deadlines I had set for myself, and the invisible tracks I’m racing on. The last time I felt this much pressure was when I was in my final year as an undergraduate, and I hated that feeling then, and I still hate it now.
In light of this, I choose to rest for now and gather my thoughts.
I know I’m not the only one in her twenties feeling so overwhelmed, and this is my advice for us: let’s rest for a few weeks and start again before we "ment". Are we not too young for this level of anxiety?
Really, guys, the majority of us don’t even have a safe space to vent, and we go out pretending to be strong people that we are not. We end up bottling up feelings, and the outburst is always misjudged. So, before the misjudging comes, find a way of chilling and getting it all out. I’m not advocating that you talk to people; I’m advocating that you choose rest.
This season, almost every young adult is losing it, but, oga, rest first. We’ll pick up from where you paused, "paused, not stopped."
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Oluseun Ayanfebaba
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