LETTER FROM ZION.

2023; AYANFEBABA FOR A REASON

2023 for me was a roller coaster of emotions.

January was quite eventless for me, and I’ll say that my year started in February.

February was a little bit confusing considering the fact that NFCS FUNAAB had just elected their 2nd female president, yeah that’s me 😂.  What came to my head first was to write a rejection letter but there some forces and humans I don’t joke with that made me accept that responsibility. It made me see how patriarchal our society is, made me understand how hard it is for some men to succumb to a female leader and made me discover how to deal with people silently. I had series of mental breakdown and physical tiredness because of NFCS. I feared that I might fail and disappoint those that truly want the best for me, I feared that those who deliberately try to bully me might get what they want but  as it should be I am Abba’s beloved ❤️ and I had a tough yet amazing time being a leader.

My year was not for NFCS FUNAAB alone, I started the year a 400lv student studying a 5 years course since 2017 and I am ending the year a graduate. Final year was overwhelming and pressurizing for me. From working on my project to writing my final exams and seeing my final results was not a joke. My mind was filled with questions of doubt. “What if I did not pass with a particular grade?” “What if I have an extra year?” “What if this, what if that” and find myself saying the common quote “Que Sera Sera”.

My education and NFCS FUNAAB were not the only components of my 2023, my family has always been a big part of me ❤️. This year happened to be the year that I have stayed away most from home but despite the distance my family has always been with me.

My social life was somehow improved and I met beautiful and amazing men, I realized all the new friends I made this year were men😂 and they are exceptional men with values to add to my life.

Spirituality has always been a very important part of me. This year, I became more intentional and at the same time lazy 🌚. I was intentional about a lot of things, and resisted the urge to do them and the urge to “salaye” to anybody. You have to make some decisions in order to help yourself, resist the peer pressure and non peer pressure to do things that weakens your spirit man.

Pressure is one thing nobody can ever do to me because I know better than to work with another human’s standard for myself.

Sitting down and reflecting on the kind of year I’ve had, I might just develop my own catena.

I learned and unlearned, I fought battles and never loosed one, I spoke and hundreds listen, I gave orders and men followed, I worked and grace found me, I walked and favor followed me.

This is my testimony, amidst all troubles which I conquered I have realized that I am loved by God.

I am his favorite daughter, I am His beloved, I am Ayanfebaba for a reason, it’s not just a name, it’s a manifestation and I manifest more in 2024.

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Love,light and Amala ❤️

Oluseun Ayanfebaba